Probably not. But I’ll try to make some effort. It’s so hard to keep up with anything when my entire personality is founded on avoidance. Once anything other than family becomes a responsibility I don’t want any part of it. Is that a personality flaw or is it something more? I think it’s part of my PTSD. Who knows? I am lucky that Husband accepts it as a part of me and doesn’t get too pissed off about it.

I wonder, which is a bigger personality flaw, procrastination or avoidance. Are they related? Does one lead to the other? I know they are not the same thing. I do both. Avoidance is stress related.Maybe procrastination is too but usually I feel lazy when I procrastinate. When I avoid I feel a nasty panic.

Unrelated to any of this… I wish Husband would sing tonight. I miss his voice. And I wish it would rain. Not just any rain but a hard, soaking, cold, wind gusting rain.

And while I”m at it I need to re-size those pics. Too freakin’ big.